Your a blessing

I’m so grateful for all your messages from previous blog posts , that I have helped you that you feel not alone .

so many of you have said that one day you hope to see the light I see the positive attitude but Let’s be honest here. I struggle.

You know this. I struggle most every day. I won’t deny that.

I also won’t deny that on most of the truly dark days, I can’t hide it as much as I’d like to.

Those moments when I’m beaten down and barely standing.

Yes, I struggle, but I am still capable and successful.

I am still here.

still achieving. I am still believing.

Somewhere in there, I am still hopeful, despite the overwhelming hopelessness.

So for anyone who knows someone who Is dealing With this who dosent answer the phone sometimes . Maybe dosent feel like getting out of bed .

Do not patronize. Just express your love . Everyone needs reminders on those days.

Here are a few things I need you to understand a bit better on the darkest days:

I (you) are not “crazy.”

Irrational thoughts may plague my brain, but I am extremely rational. This is why I struggle most. There is a continual effort on my part of taking the irrational thoughts and replacing them with the rational. Constantly. I must take captive every thought I have. It is exhausting. I know . Your not alone .

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I (you) are independent, but still need people.

Everyone does. I need you. I need love. Thankfully, I am able to complete my day to day jobs. However, when I can’t see the light or find hope, presence means a lot to me. Having another breathing person who expresses even an ounce of love and care for me makes such a difference. There is a comfort and a safety that I cannot begin to describe.

I (you) are not weak.

Not in the slightest. Rather, I am and you are powerful and incredibly strong. to push through so many obstacles. This takes humility. when I let down my pride and Ask for help feels weak, but really it requires tremendous amounts of strength. Do not look down on me (or anyone else for that matter) for being transparent and honest. I love you, and I trust you. Please respect, value and protect my vulnerability.protect the person who comes to you .

There are times when you don’t have to say a word.

Don’t worry about what to say to me. I don’t always need a lecture or an uplifting, encouraging speech. Sometimes, it’s comforting to be reminded that quiet isn’t always violent. (Go listen to Twenty-One Pilot’s “car radio” for this beautiful reference.) Just being there is enough. It has been enough. Be there with me. Be there for me. You don’t have to be my counselor, psychologist or my mom. Just be you. Be. I love who you are, and Well if i opened up to you . Then I trust you . I love that you care and that you are willing. You stand by even in the ugly or scary times. You are here. That is enough.

Just know even when you are not OK, always try to be. It will get better. It will be better. I will help myself. you will help yourself we’ll help others.

I may struggle, you may struggle but you are not a loser. you are an overcomer.

You are a blessing.